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it can be so hard for me to admit so many things
i can't fathom how wrong i can be
yet
i find myself wrong a lot
swallowing my pride
attempting
working
you hear me say i'm sorry more than anything
i mess up a lot
i am scared
i am anxious
i can act in ways that are counterproductive to the growth i long for
yes i am wrong
admit it
that's what i come to tell myself a lot
to open up and admit my flaws and perhaps
im not who i thought i was
i am
then there you are
you stand there
through it all and do something that i haven't felt before
you see who i am
who i can be
those eyes that I can't get enough of
tattoo them on me
i did
forever i can look into them
i've never known eyes like yours
i do talk a lot about how i used to think of you
however i was wrong
i was wrong about what you would be like
you look nothing like my dreams
i confess
you are too kind
too sweet
too considerate of me
when i thought i knew love
you taught me more
how could i have ever imagined
what i couldn't even fathom?
you interrupted my life
i am trying to forget everything I knew before you
how to love
how to live
how to smile
all of it isn't right
i know that because you show me different
i fight it
i admit
it's hard to accept that what I love is what i have been scared of all along
everything
having someone be my everything
cliche
no
truth
yes
i get scared that someone could love me as much as
i
love
them
that there is an equal out there for me
that i could drown in love
that when i sink
i can look up and see
your eyes
soft, bright and warm
looking at me with your gentle hand extended to pull me out of the depths
darkness
that is what has surrounded me
is it that i have sank so far
i have seen darkness before
as the sand in an hourglass drops
the darkness fades
there you are to teach me and disrupt my life
yet i'm anxious that you are here
my belief is that my fear stems from you
not because of you
from you
9821 days
i waited for you
you're here now and all i know is that it's nothing as i imagined
all of this change
i couldn't concieve this beauty that's before me
you are nothing like my dreams
i'm falling
i fall all the time
it's time for me to accept that you are here
the life i wanted isn't what i thought it would be
it's better
i was wrong
i wasn't creative enough to know what this would
feel like
be like
i am a man of many words
yet i can't string together the thoughts to let you know how I feel
what you mean to me
i know one thing
it's always been you
im learning others
that this is here
you are here
that your eyes that draw me in closer are what i love because they see me
selfish
i made this about me
again
what if it's true, Samantha?
the destiny that i fell in love with your eyes because you're the only one whose
seen me
i was wrong to ever doubt you
be a prick
give you less than the stars
look up to the sky tonight
realize
i was wrong again
i can't give you the stars
you're destined for them
you are my star
my nothern star
guiding light
the love of my life
you shine when everything else is dark
the crypts of my mind now have beauty in them because your light
thank you
i can't wait to wake up and look into your eyes every day of my life
you used to tell me my eyes told you everything
do they tell you i want to spend eternity with you
or that all they see is you
i can't keep them off you
i am wrong
i have been wrong
i got it right
when i gave you my heart
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